Livin in this world is hard

Its hard to feel joy when saddness is floating in our eyes

Its hard to feel in your heart light when the world is filled with shadow

Its hard to take a deep breath, when the air is tainted

Its so hard to believe when every thing is doubtfull

Its hard to trust when hearts are filled with betrayal

Its soo damn hard to love when every where you look you see hatred

Its so hard to ask for forgivness when every where you look you see people lookin for revenge

Its so hard to stand tall when you feel the world on your shoulders

Its so hard

but after every dusk comes a dawn... and after every tear comes a smile

And the ONLY thing we need to get through this hard times is One person who REAlly loves us

!?!

Some times I wish I was LOST... Some times I wish I was far away... Some times I wish I was some one else... or blind... or dead

 I wish I didnt love you as much as I do... I wish I didnt have to see your tears... so my blood wouldnt spill as your tears do

 نمیدونی که خدا خورشید زندگیتو کنار خودت روی زمین نگه داشته نه تو آسمون کنار خودش... نمیدونی بزرگترین نعمتی که میتونی آرزوش رو داشته باشی در چند قدمیته فقط کافیه چشماتو باز کنی و دستتو دراز... چطور میشه ناامید بود!؟! چطور میشه خدا رو دوست نداشت وقتی خدا انقدر تورو دوست داره!؟!

چشمات رو باز کن...

p.s : من که چشمامو باز کردم و خورشیدمو دیدم... خدا کمکم کنه...

p.s 2 :این منتم به خاطر داشم فارسی نوشتم که اینگلیسی دوست نداره

It was the week from HELL and its still goin on... I need a hand... warm soft kind... Im broken...Im lonely ... so so so so so sooo lonely ... where is my heaven

Ive never felt so lonely in my life... Im sad

where I belong there is no darkness... there is no hatred... there is no war... no ones sad... no ones hungry... no ones jealous... every thing is beutifull ... every thing shines ...every thing is so peace full

now Im stuck in this place ... a world full of darkness... filled with hatred... no ones friendly ... every one wear a mask... I feel hunted... but I wont give up... and I wont give in... I will glow like the moon... and Ill find the way back too where I was... to the place of happiness...Ill seek the light ...Ill  find god in me... back to heaven

فکر نمیکردم اینطوری تموم شه سال ۸۵ ... امیدوار بودم اینطوری تموم نشه...

شاید آخر سال ۸۴ هم فکر نمیکردم سال بعدش اینطوری بگذره...

ولی واقعا به این نتیجه رسیدم که آدم هرچی براش اتفاق می افته باید می افتاده...

فکر نمیکردم بعد اونهمه اتفاق و بلا که سرم اومد انقدر احساس خوبی نسبت به سال گذشته داشته باشم...

این احساسم رو هم مدیون چند نفرم که خودشون میدونن...

دوستون دارم...

دوسشون دارم...

   Thank u God

امیدوارم سال نو بهتر از سال قبل باشه برای همه

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